I didn't mean to, but I really couldn't help it.
My temp this morning was NOT higher than yesterday. It was .05 lower - 97.97 to 97.92.
And I'm starting to feel crampy and AF-ish.
So can you please tell me WHY I still tested??
Argh. I'm so disgusted with myself.
FD came home from a business trip last night and said he had a favor to ask of me - he wants me to learn how to relax because he thinks I stress out too much about everything, including TTC. And...I do. And he thinks that if I'd just relax, everything would work out.
ARGH. It does NOT work like that. That's like the insipid advice you get from some women who have not the first clue who say "oh, just stop trying and it'll happen." Where the hell is the logic in that?
He meant well. I know he did. But it just ended up hurting my feelings instead. I'm uptight and a worrier by nature. And I hate to tell ya, but after this many years of worrying over everything, it's not going to change overnight, if ever.
So I'm disgusted with myself for testing, frustrated with FD for thinking that I have this switch that I can just flip to relax, and overall just feeling burned out.
Looks like it's on to cycle 13 post-MC. Gee, yay.